I think I just said un-necessary things to ervand today. I think what I've said will freak him out. Stupid Indira!! friendster has been a great companion for me when I'm feeling bored. But there's 2 person in my friends list that I don't really want them there. They connect me with so many painful memories ...

'instant gratification' ...
it goes to everybody out there that still consider me their friend, who knows me the way I really am, and accepted that. To those who still love me, along with my short comings. To those who still cherish the days they spent with me. To those who backed me up during my weary moments. To those who acknowledge my dreams and pray for it. To those who prayed for me along my way, and teach me the real wisdom, real love, real religion, and real faith. To those who hurt me, accused me, harassed me, violated my rights and feelings, destroying my hopes, and chase away my dreams. Even they add so many things into my life. My mother, my lil sister, my aunt, and every single person in line with me as a family.

if it's for my God, there's no instant gratification. Deepest thanks flowing in and out of me. He overwhelmed me with His presence in my life.

New year is ahead. 2004 is coming. Dear God, give me hope, courage and love more and more this year. Keep me under Your wings, and guard me with Your unfailing love. Hold me with Your right hand, that brings victory. I shall live in God's circle of blessing, and help me to realize it, and not taking it for granted.